Midnight Song....

This midnight really feel so lonely only with the song of lullaby...physically is tired but still hang on with blogging and all those unnecessary stuff. My weekend is end up, tomorrow gonna go to work again and need to rush on with the current project =( but at least i learn out something.... One hour ago is Father's Day..and i did message my daddy wish him Happy Daddy days !! hahaha..what a lame here...

My internship gonna end up soon....I gonna miss the people in NEXUS IDEA CONSULTANCY...hehehe even we just a colleague but sincerely from my heart i really appreciate the time we been through =) Even some are really annoy but this is life...from there i learn out a lot of thing, I know is kinda test for me either bad or good i will just appreciate it. Thank You !!! Today is 21.06.2010 Monday 1.09am... means that i left 41 days to go...hahaha..

Report have to start soon...gonna prepare a lot of information for it. Beside that, my final project for the coming semester have to finalize it, i have no idea what to do and i need to get approval from the authority. Have to start brain storming as well...erm what can i do leh ?? Any idea ??

Alright~ that's all for today...really need to go to bed. Tomorrow gonna wake up early to work..good night and have a sweet dream.

I'd have over come it !!

This day i'm not going to forget it forever 13.06.2010 Sunday. I'm really happy for myself that i had over come it !!! yeah...Thanks that is not too late !! Thanks you my dear, without your support i don think i can easily get through all this...and all my friend, really thank for the advise and support....Actually is not that hard, is true....just let it be, soon u will realize you have over come the problem...

Love is blind !!! hahaha now i believe it...Lucky i'm not the blind one...by the way, he let me learn a lot and how to love some one... "thanks for everything !! Take care and all the best.. u will always the first i love. Thanks again"

I really love you all....really make my day !! Soon everyone is going to their own pathway, so now i'm really appreciate every second, time and day !! My Life is change since i meet u all....hahaha !! especially u...hahaha... thanks for the comfort and support.... so sudden i wondering why are we so close ?? hahaha....

A shoulder ??

I'm so tired !! really tired... i know this time is my fault, i'm too careless. My car is the victims.... happen again, why is my life full of challenge ?? Can i get a rest just for a while..thing come all together. Please la... Another big lesson !!!!! This time i don know can i effort to handle it?? My car My car My car !!!!!! I'm so sorry...

*cry*

daddy, mummy, uncle, aunt... i don means it, i also don wan this kind of thing happen. I learn my lesson, I know i give u all so my trouble and don know how to take care myself. Please forgive me =(...

Another BIG lesson which is much much more expensive then RM1800. Argh...feel like wanna bang the wall ones i think back how can i get into same tragedy again. I'm going to eat bread again start from now on....yuhuu.....=)

Cu ky ba ba ba

Aloho ~ to find the place where u belong

Ohana ~ a family to u call ur own, where u feel at home

Everybody say ~ E lai la o... wa e la... no mai hi o ha na... wel come coast.. to com mom bai...

no hai com mom bai~~~~~ ma ga ma ga...

...yummy yummy....hehehe...thanks for letting me know such a delicious food in this world =) Specially for some one...

♥♥ nice song ♥♥

Here is ur Answer...

When you're not in mood I can know that..
But why when Im sad or moody you cant feel that?

U don even know what is my mood so don say you know that and
yesterday you are not in mood i really don know, as what i know i don like see people with moody face so I'm trying to make u happy but in the end you run away.
And U mention that is not the first time but did u ever told me that ?
Anyways, I just can say SORRY here since that u don wan to face me with this problem.

Sometime something I dont want to do but I know you want it for long time already..
I just accompany you lar..
At least you're happy
Its better then both are unhappy mah..
For example lar..
That day we went to Poppy..
Actually Im super duper sleepy and tired and moodless..
But I see you so high how I dare to make you down..

Here I tell u something. I hate people trying pity me or actually u not willingly do it but u just do it. Please next time if u really don wan please tell me, i don wan feel like I'm forcing u to do all those.

Tell you what..
Even you always say you're not love him
You dont want to love him..
It cant make the reality changed or make you lose all the feeling..

I admit that i still Love him, but as to comfort myself and let myself not to think of him this is my way to settle the feeling in my heart, what else can i do ? I'm not U... as u mention that is ur own way and here i can tell u back this is my way but this not means i don wan to accept the truth.


Every times when you're not in mood you scold me..

I'm very very very SORRY !!! Sorry for everything. I don means to hurt U..


But Im curious why when Im not in mood
You scold me but not comfort me..

Sorry..Sorry...Sorry...I don understand U....but i can tell u why i din comfort u cz i don wan u to put more hope on him. If this way is not correct then i really Sorry...cz i been hurt b4 and i don wan same thing happen to u, but seem like the situation is different then i only can say SO SORRY !!!


Know why every time I've something I didnt tell you at first?
Because I scare you scold me lar..

Now i know...Thanks for letting me know...and just to inform u if u did something wrong i will tell u and if u think i'm scolding u for fun, i don know what can i say beside sorry to hurt U....


Last time you asked me dont shake my legs..
I said you also shaking your legs..
And you said because you're listening to the songs..
And I was too..
Then YOU SCOLD ME BECAUSE I ARGUE WITH YOU

Sorry again...i know u not satisfied cause that day i say u like that...ok fine...the reason i ask u don shake ur leg is for ur own good... as i'm also do that but i also don like it cz my parents told me that shaking leg is not a good habit, but sometimes my daddy also do it but i din blame him cz i know it's a habit, but i still understand why he don like me to do that. If u really not satisfied what i say here, then u can just ignore it and continue the way u like.

Whatever I say for you its wrong..

I just give my advice i never say U are wrong, just u don wan to accept what m i saying. If i really do that, Sorry again....

the day he went away

Grass are green, Sky are blue, Blood are red....and.....

The fact is there, just wait till this girl came out from the nightmare. Finally she decided to give up and away for a while to recover what she had been through. One is her friend and another is the one she love. At first she doesn't think so much and she had never fall in love with someone that deep. But after that she learn a lot what's about life and people around her.

Date : 03.05.2010 Monday

This girl call up her friend to tell her that she's not going to involve anymore. This girl really get hurt by her friends and that guy, this girl ask her friend out for a drink and talk about that matter. She hoped that her friend can honestly admit and tell her what ever that she didn't tell this girl but seem that her friend doesn't care much of the relation between both of them and her friend didn't admit what ever she have done. This girl was totally disappointed, she ever put so much effort in the relation but in the end she realize that how much her friend care about their relation. In fact this have proof that this girl's friend more concern about that guy then this girl.

One day, that guy nudge this girl in msn, asked like "how are you". This girl really don know how to answer this question even seem likes this was a simple question, then this girl just reply it as what people normally answer "I'm fine". That guy continue asked "do you mind if I like xxx", this girl almost take half an hour to answer this question and she answer "It's important", then that guy reply "yes", and he also mention that he just know that this girl was interested with him as told by her friend. As what that guy say "yes" and she wanted to know how deep that guy has step into the relation between that guy and her friend, so she decided to tell the truth of her friend because this girl scare what if one day that guy get hurt by her friend and she totally lost her mind when she think of the day that guy get hurt by her friend and wonder will that guy blame her for not telling him the truth.

Just after telling him, that guy straight away call her friend to ask for the truth but that girl didn't admit and continue lying. That night really was a big war for three of them. Her friend also straight away message this girl and saying this and that, but that time this girl was very clear with what she was doing and admit that what she have told that guy and she also tell her that she doing all this for the person she care.

That guy has step into it very deeply as what this girl can see. Because he can totally lost his mind and get mad of her friend. Since that happen, that guy suggest that all of them meet out and talk about it. All of us agree and prepare to face the problem. That night really hurt this girl feeling because all of the reason came out was solving the problem between that guy and her friend, no one understand how this girl's feeling when she realize that she has totally lost that guy, how much pain when she saw how that guy care of her friend and actually she knew that guy gonna gave her friend a chance.


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this girl and that guy...

Just that night this girl arrive KL, she go and meet up with that guy and their friends as well. Seem like nothing have change just like usual eat dinner then chit chat then go home. Till one day the girl felt something wrong but she ignore all of those cause she know she can't change anything. She felt that guy has change, like he's not interested with this girl anymore, in the other hand that guy have feeling with her friend.

But this girl didn't accept the truth and continue hang out with them and continue believe that they have nothing. Beside just go for drink or dinner they also go for movie and clubbing.

Since she felt something wrong she always predict something going to be chance and continue putting hopes, even every times that guy will call to this girl's friend mobile phone to look for her friends, but this girl gives herself a reason that she don care who's he calling as soon as she can meet up with him.

This girl getting more clearer and clearer and she start jealous with her friends. Every times that she hopes something but in return she get disappointments. She start felt that she is the extra between both of her friend and that guy so she decide try to chase back his heart. But this girl don have any experience on handling such kind of situation and this only make her felt even suffered, till one day her friend went back to her hometown, this girl take this advantage to spend time with that guy without her friend.

Both of them went for a dinner party at One Utama to celebrate his friends birthday. That night this girl really appreciate all the time she been trough with that guy cause she knew she have to give up on him already, and she knew even her friend not beside that guy but her friends was still always keep in touch with him and her friends know everything what have they been through . The next day morning, this girl still wanna meet that guy again and this time, this girl really felt that she was extra and she was so embarrassing when she went to that guy house and his friend like tried to tell her something but she pretend that she didn't listen anything.

After few day, this girl realize a lot. She realize that even she got that guy but not his heart is meaningless.


-to be continue-